Replicates

 

Replicates?!!! What a weird title don't you think?!

well I guess so but once you read it, you'll surely get my point!! So, let's have some chat, shall we?! You know they say that it's impossible to find all people the same.... not in the looks of course, but I mean in the character. I don't make sense I know, so let me demonstrate an example....
**"FRIENDS"!!!!!!
So you meet some people, either you like them or not...then you share some info with them, then you might get close to some of theme, until you -"supposing"-find that one that is what we call your " soul-mate"...Your best-friend is another word to describe it actually...You share your life together, with everything in it. happiness, sadness, joy, tears, funny situations, secrets.... etc.
Well I guess that what the "BOOK" says am right?! But what truly happens???
let me tell you my problem.... -lifelong problem-.... I meet someone, I like of course I am talking about both sexes. then we become close, best friends as we say and things work out great...and everything follows the friendship rules.... Then SUDDENLY everything changes, thy start distancing themselves, less talking, less interaction then.... FAREWELL PAL!!
And to me they are all the same you know, every time I meet someone new, I tell myself, this time is going to be different.... but does it?! NEVER!!!
You know here's the thing, I hate losing people, no matter what relationship bonds us.... I just hate it, I feel that am the most hated person you know, why do they leave me?! Is it me? or am just having some bad luck? I admit I have my flaws and I make mistakes.... But who doesn't?? we are humans not saints.... That’s replicates...they all follow the same path.... The same steps EVERY SINGLE TIME!!
And what do I get from all of this?! A broken heart, disappointments!! How do anyone ask me after that to trust someone? to share secrets? to open my heart to somebody hen I know that finally am going to be betrayed? or dumped?! they are all CATS!! where is love? where's loyalty? where's FRIENDSHIP?!! am I living in a whole different world?! Am I a stranger?! And it hearts every time even much more than the one before...It's like it's a scar or more like an unhealed wound and every time being scratched and scrapped again and again and again....
Am I lunatic? or let me say a DRAMA-QUEEN as most people describe me?! Sadly, people don't understand what I have been or still going through. neither do they respect the fact that am so strong to fight all these conditions and circumstances and move away all the obstacles that face me! Am a human being and I have my sad, happy moments?! why do they always focus on those times when am overwhelmed and agonized?! They don't remember those days when I stood beside them when they were in shit!! And when I was happy and laughing and having fun!! I mean you want to speak up when you're sad not when you're happy ?! happiness can be shown in various ways but sadness?! crying? am sick of it actually!! I need to talk to somebody and need that “somebody" to understand me !!!
But oh come on who am I kidding!? a DOG might be more understanding than you people!!
Replicates, all are nothing but replicates!!!!!